wooooooooww!!!!ang ganda pala ng my girl...

a frnd just gave me episodes of my girl..i met him in...secret..last friday....sig...yen...lianne..lam nyo to...guys issue lang kase kaya d ko n ssbhn...

takte!!!!ang ganda tlga!!!!hehehehe

im a bit disappointed these past few days....haiii....malas ko lang tlga...lht ng crushes ko s schl may connection s frnds ko...woooww...boys tlga!!!!!lakas mangasar...so d sad thing there is that...alam ng mga crush ko n crush ko cla bcz of my frnds....god....nakakahiya!!!sbra!!!!!!e yung iba s knla nakausp ko n...bwct tlga!!!!!

macroeconomics!!!!ayoko n syo..hehehehe!!!!!wht about...bibbo kid nako s macro..i mean i really have to pangsalba ng grade....prelims n nxt week!!!waaaahhhhh!!!!!!

FRUSTRATIONS!FRUSTRATIONS!FRUSTRATIONS!i havent been this frustrated before!im so damn frustrated with my love lyf...w/ my dancing status...w/ my studies!!!i feel i have nothing at all!!!why is it lyk this?how come before..my love lyf was ok & at the same tym im doin fine w/ my dancin skills & at the same tym maintaining my grades well...arrrghh!!!0 love lyf...fucked up dancer...and wt about...failing acctg...wt happend to me?!?was it my fault?!?!i dont know!!!!!!!!!i feel much much much of a loser!!!!=c

i almost had a boyfrnd...bt wt hapend???his parents or i should i say his family are very very very much of a RACIST!!!!screw u all those racist out there!!!!lyk die ryt now!!!!!they ddnt lyk me bec im a fil..bt the worst thing there is that they would almost curse me bec i have a chinese blood...so wt if i have a chinese blood????they ddnt trust fil chinese people for they do not know where to stand...so wt????????does race really matter????fuck u all those pure chinese parents who ddnt want their offspring to be with girls lyk me!hmmppp!!!NAKAKAASAR!LECHE!!

i know i can dance...but i cant blame myself not 2dance this college...mahirap nga...bt the thing is napagiiwanan nako!!!not dancin for 2 years is lyk hell!!!!cz feeling mo mguumpisa ka ulit!!!cz i was not used to whole day practices...d nako sanay s paguran...wala na...laitera ako!!!pag titingnan mo madali pero pag gagawin na...o my god!!!!e date d naman ako ganon...

how come i flunked acctg1...eh as a matter of fact i took it already nung 4th yr hi schl..my frnd told me it was ok cz our acctg teacher in hi schl had poor teaching skills in acctg kase duh....cna kd lang gumagawa ng homeworks nun tapos kopyahan na....ya ryt shes not good...in fact i ddnt learn from her at all...but after repeating the subject..ive realized i should have not failed acctg1 cz its not hard at all...

haaaaii..all i can say is goodluck saken!!!!17 days from now..il be taking my summer clas in acctg2..i feel a bit excited cz some of my good frnds will be my clsmates!!!am i bad...feeling happy cz they flunked the subject too..haha!!wtever!!buti nlng dameng outings so i can get rid of my frustrations...bt my problem again is where will i get the money??i feel lyk drawing back at my parents everytym i go out cz duh!!!ANG KAPAL NAMAN NG MUKHA KO!!!MGSSUMMER CLASS N NGA KO LABAS PAKO NG LABAS!!!bt i really have to go to those outings and gimmicks cz i know for a fact that somehow it will make me feel better & at ease w/myself....

pano ko ipapaalam n on apr.2..i have to go to araneta to watch ncc..then the next day..apr3..swimming w/my holy frnds..nica..ai..jane..cel..chagon...tapos 3days after apr6 i have to go to ust to confirm my major course and to get my clearance..tapos next day..apr7-9 batangas trip with my ust kada...tapos next day apr10 enrolment ko for summer...tapos may nangungulet pa n gimmick in embassy...PANO KO IPAPAALAM MGA UN.....GOD HELP ME!

yesterday was my first tym to attempt to skate....wahahahha!!!d pala ko marunong....im getting the right way of skating kaso la ng tym so next tym kaya ko n...yey!!!it was fun kase i was with my classmates!!!!!

im getting better already kaya dont worry im fine na.....to those who knew what happened...okay n tlga ko...and lets just forget it....it's for my own good na rin....

just last week...sobrang impromptu gumimik ako with ruth and frances in ipanema....then i met somebody tapos guess what....andre n andre dating nya!!!!i was like....o my god...ano b un!!!!gestures.. the way he talks ganon n ganon....pati friends ko napansin nila...he was very nice and super funny...kaso nde sya chinito...he's mestiso and mjo chubby...hahahahaha!!!!!!but then hanggang dun lang un....he ddnt get my number....okay n rin un...coz meeting a guy like andre.....wag nlng dammit!!!!!

and may good news!!!!!because of what happened....sig...yen!!!!!!PINAPAYAGAN NAKO MAGOVERNIGHT!!!!!!YEY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!seriously....my parents wont mind na....kaya tell me when papayagan n talaga ko.....

btw...yen sig...kung gusto nyo gumimik.....we can go to embassy...dont worry friend ko yung dj dun....so free entrance naten...we'll pay nlng for our drinks....d lang kayo....kahit madame pa tyo ayos lang....

I'm home alone again
And you're out hangin with your friends
So you say somehow I know it's not quite that way
It's getting pretty late
And you haven't checked on me all day
When I called you didn't answer
Now I'm feeling like your ignoring me
I wish that you were home
Holding me tight in your arms

And I wish I could go back
To the day before we met
And skip my regret

I wish I wasn't in love with you
So you couldn't hurt me
it just ain't fair the way you treat me
No you don't
deserve me
Wasting my time thinking bout you when you ain't never gon change
I wish I wasn't in love with you so I
wouldn't feel this way

When you touch me my heart melts
And everything you did wrong I forgive
So you play me and take advantage
Of the love
that I feel for you
Why you wanna hurt me so bad
I believed in you that's why I'm so mad
Now I'm drowning in
disappointment
And it's hard for me to even look at you

Said you care about me
But from what I see
I ain't feeling that
So I disagree
Gave you all my love
And understanding

And you're treating me like your enemy
So leave me alone
Don't want nothing from you
Just go back where you came from

This house is no longer your home
You are not welcome no no no more

Hear you knockin' at the door again
I'm wonderin' should I let you in
I open uo the door and see
The flowers for me
So beautiful in your hand
Please stop begging me to take you back
I've always been a sucker for romance
And before you know
it I concede
You're all over me
Oh no here I go again
I wish I wasn't in love with you
So you couldn't hurt me

pls pray for carl...naconfine kase sya just yesterday...may possibility kaseng may dengue sya..

god..just last year...naconfine rin sya kase nahulog sya s stairs...tapos ngyn...no b un

o well...my takas in batangas was successful though i got home at 5am last monday...sayang d nko nakasama s tagaytay trip ng kada ko s ust...

so on monday...getting out of clearance na...im really really nerovus!!!!!i cant fail acctg!!!6 units un...if ever bagsak ko s acctg....mgbagsak pako ng 1 subj...bye ust...haaaiiii....gudluck me!!!!

lianne sa 28 ko pa malalaman sched ko e....il inform u kagad right after my enrollment

o well...karl courts na...but andre pa rin ko e...he's not really my crush...mjo na cutan lang ko...but ive told him na im not ready and andre pa rin ko....

yey!!!!!!!!!after 2 days of not sleeping...i mean....'idlip' lang ginawa ko.....yesterday was my accounting tst!!!!!!and u know wt the coverage is?????????10 chapters of my acctng buk..meaning COVER BY COVER NG BUK I2!!!!!!!!!!!!!uhhhhhhmmmm.....though i got 97 sa isang qz....i think it didnt help my grade at ol...kase 68 lang class standing ko sa final grade......haaaaaaaiiiiii.....and 3 months from now...im gona have my majoring exams!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!ECO HERE I COME!!!!!!!!!!!!

oi guys!!!!!!!!!!!!!!GIMIK NA TYO!!!!!!!!!!!!!sig...wt n plano????????aisa..tina...yen...sausage...and lianee....wahahahaha!!!how i wsh!!!!oi!!!!!sembreak n!!!!!!alis tyo!!!!!!!!!

tom is my first tym to escape.....as in takas in a province!!!!!!!ruth will have her debut in batangas kase...itatakas ko ni james!!!!wahahahahaha!!!gudluck samen!!!!!but i told my parents na debut in taft cz nxt week..may debut tlga dpat kong pupuntahan...but i think d nko makakapunta don...bday party kase ni james......

buti nlng may chikka!!!!!!!i only gt to spend 2.50 for textn andre!!!!!!!!!lianne!!!magchikka ka na aahhh...

update lit ko later.....

ANDRE'S GONE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

he left last thurs...as in for the third time...nghatid nnmn ko sa naia!!!!!!!it was d worst feeling ever!!!!!!!!!!last hug...last kiss with andre...pero ganon pa rin kme!!!!la nmn nabago samen.....

sig!!!!!tama ka we have to go out this sembreak!!!!pero wag weekends ahh...sunod sunod kase yung debut na pupuntahan ko e...

it's so so weird!!!!!!yesterday...i hd this accounting qz...so sympre expected ko super baba ko to think...nung thurs...i was not really ok kase nga umalis na c andre..nagaral nmn ko e but the effort compared date...mas may effort non...but no!!!baba ko pa rin...but this tym 3 mistakes lang ko!!!!!I GOT 97!!!!!!!!!!who would think i would got that grade!!!!!!!!la p msyado effort un....sobrng himala tlga!!!!!

update lit ko later...

after 10 years....uhhmm..la nako tym magonline unless s research paper or assignments....uhmmm...this past few weeks...or days or whatever...ive been spending my time with andre..sympre he's leaving very very soon..i mean he'll leave on oct.6 not on oct. 10..so ano un..pa-aga ng pa-aga....so every wednesdays or fridays nagmimeet kame sa megamall or shang....haaaiii....

then....i have this crush in class...his name is karl...seatmate ko sya every comp. lecture....we do text...tapos i received this forwarded msg the other day...nakalagay..'mahal mo ba ko?!'...there are choices kase like 'oo, as a friend, as a crush, mejo...bla bla' then at first ang nireply ko lang panay hmmmmm...uhhmmmmm...then i told him as a friend...then sb ko 'honestly prangkahan a lil bit of as a crush b4' para safe...hihihihi!!!!then finorward ko sknya yung sinend nya skn...tapos ang sagot nya...MEJO!!!!!!!oh my god!!!!!!kilig!!!!!grabe!!!!tapos i told andre about it...nagselos..hahaha!!!!but the thing is...kame b? haaaiiii....

we just met yesterday sa megamall...watched longest yard!!!!ang cool ng soundtrack!!!!swear!!!!yung soundtrack lang yung pinansin e...

super pasaway tlaga kme s class!!!!!thanks sa leakage na nakukuha nila....it's really weird...how could they have those leakage?!lalo na in stat...my prof is so stupid!!!!how could he leave us in the class as in umalis sya sandali naiwan nya yung mga test papers....so my classmate took one of the test papers...pinaphotocopy nya.and then magic!!!!!wahahahahaha!!!!!!!!

sobrang im so thankful for all of those forwarded msgs at nagkakabalita ko sa mga tao..like syndy...ariane...sandy...sig....hehehe!!!!!

i ws wrong.....d pala ko 46...51 pala prelim grade ko sa accounting!!!!im so paranoid tlga!!!!!!hehehehe!!!!but kahit na....puta!!!!mababa pa rin un....

last thursday....nagview kame ng documentary sa ethics about abortion bla bla...then yung una...i saw yung talagang 'nanganganak' thing...as in d sya edited...we saw the u know of the girl and all that...grabe tlga!!!!lalo n yung s abortion!!!!o my god!!!!!d ko kinaya un kase pinakita tlga yung the real abortion e..i mean puta!!!!!pira piraso na yung body ng baby!!!basta ganon.....i dont wana talk about it na....after having viewd that documentary...it made me realized how great my mom is!!!!!woooooowww!!!!bsta un..wahaha!!!

im sleepy na..next tym lit

frustration!!!putangina yan!!!!!ive been so depressed....so low...so glum...since nakuha ko yung prelim grade ko sa accounting....i have never gotten a very very very very very low grade in my life before..putangina!!!!d2 lang....i got 33 over 100 sa test...then my prelim grade is 46!!!!!!!putangina tlga!!!!!i feel so stupid!!!!!!and ang nakakahiya don....may accounting ko nung high school...but ai keeps on telling me na wag ko gawing dahilan yung accounting nung high school for my depression....iyak ko ng iyak kahapon!!!!sobra!!!!!

what more sa accounting 2?!?tapos course ng mom ko accounting....cum laude pa sya....what about!!!!!d ko masabi sa mom ko grade ko....pano ko sasabihin na 46 lang prelim grade ko....e below 65 singko na e....sht tlga!!!!!!!!

uhhmm...inspite of all these terrible things....im so pleased kase lumalake circle of friends ko...or should i say..mga kainuman?!?hehehehehe!!!!last sat...right after ng economics and business ad test..naginuman kame malapet sa dapitan...aircon nmn un e....bwisit kase na accounting yan!!!!!sobrang na-occupy namen yung buong place sa sobrang dame!!!!!then last monday naginuman ulit...right after the accounting test....then last tuesday..kinabukasan...inuman ulit....haaaiiii.....lahat kame!!!!we are all very much tormented dahil sa accounting na yan...

but the good news is!!!!!my prof in accounting is my adviser!!!!yey!!!!!!!!there's still hope nmn pala e...i think...

tapos last week after comp test...nagmeet kame ni andre sa megamol..then we watched 'the wedding crashers'...i dont know...d ko msyado naapreciate..i think pang-dvd lang un e...tapos andre was so sick nung kasama ko sya....kaya right after namen kumain..uwe na agad....

haaaaaaaaaaiiiii.....i know it's wrong....pero sobrang na-iinsecure ko sa ex nya..putangina!!!!she's very attractive!!!!!matalino pa...super bait....dancer pa raw....e puta!!!!hehehehe!!!!!!!!

kung last year galle mall ko..now...panay megamol...4 straight weeks nakong pumunta don...not just 4andre...don n kame naghahang out ni ruth....there was a time inikot na namen yung both sides ng 2nd floor kase all this time kala namen 3rd floor yun kase may roman numeral n III..what about!!!super tricky tlga un!!!yesterday i saw michelle madrigal...shes not pretty!!!!para saken ahh!!!bitchy pa sya!!!papansin amp!!!then may shooting dun vietnam rose!!what about!!!saw angelica panganiban and aj dee..i thought pangit yung aj..may itchura nmn pala in person...pero d ko pa rin memorize buong megamol..i stil have to look for the directory...

im a bit sleepy n..next tym lit